Turmoil

When we moved to Texas a couple years ago, we sent our daughter-in-law to tour the house we ultimately ended up purchasing. We didn’t see it in person until a few weeks later, but as soon as she walked in the door with the video on, I knew it was “home.” It checked all the boxes on the “must have” list and even the boxes on the “wish list.” God provided and blessed in an amazing way for us.

There is just one thing I don’t like about my home. It is located smack in the middle of “Turmoil Curve.” Who in the world would name a street in a neighborhood “Turmoil Curve.” Whenever someone asks for my address, I get questions and comments. Yes, I live on Turmoil Curve. Not exactly an ideal street name. Who wants to live in or on Turmoil?

I think we can all agree that our world is in turmoil right now. We are in the middle of (well, prayerfully nearing the end of) the longest government shut down in our history, a political divide in our nation that feels wider than our country itself, wars around the world, increasing crime and cost of living. On a personal level, I’m sure we all have a list of tumultuous areas in our lives: paychecks that don’t quite stretch to the next one, doctor’s appointments and tests that are uncertain, caring for aging parents or our own precious babies who can’t tell us what’s wrong, difficult relationships with a spouse, friend, or co-worker. But if anyone happens to ask, we are “fine.”

God reminded me this week to take a look at my map. Out the back of my home is a beautiful greenbelt where deer come by periodically. There is something deeply spiritual about the deer that make me feel a greater connection to God. I think they are a reminder of the beauty of his creation, even on Turmoil Curve in the west side of San Antonio. And they fill my heart with gratitude to Jesus for his provision for me and my family.

If I back out of my driveway and turn right, I will run into “Peaceful Dell,” and if I back out of my driveway and turn left, I run into “Peaceful Glade.” No matter which way I go on Turmoil Curve, I end up on a peaceful street. When we follow God in the midst of our turmoil, He promises that we will find peace at the end of it.

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” (John 14:27, NIV)

Thanks Charlie!

Some of you may see the title of this post and decide to stop reading. But let me be clear….I don’t do political posts. Maybe I should, but that’s not my calling. I hate confrontation and will pretty much do whatever I can to avoid it in any way, shape or form.

As a Christ follower, it has been heart-breaking, scary, prophetic, and eye-opening, even shocking, to experience the assassination of Charlie Kirk. Jesus told us in John 15, verses 18-25, that the world would hate us, just as it hated him. I have had people in my life hate me for various reasons. I don’t like it, even a little bit. Of course we want to be liked, even loved, by everyone. But let me tell you, being loved by Jesus is enough. It’s more than enough; it is amazing! Even if everyone I knew were to suddenly hate me, the love of Jesus would still be enough. It would be sad here in this world, but still enough that I would get to be with Jesus and love by Him for eternity.

These past two weeks since Charlie’s assassination have drawn me to Jesus. My love for Jesus has been strengthened by the stories I have heard. More than anything though, Charlie showed me that confrontation isn’t a bad thing. He lived his life to meet people where they were and help them see Jesus. Maybe I need to be more willing, bolder, and more courageous to speak Jesus to strangers around me.

Dear Jesus, help me be like Charlie in this world. But more than that, I want to be like YOU. I want to love like you do and talk like you do. And thank you for Phil Wickham’s new album that has put so many of my thoughts and feelings into songs that I can sing to you.

Thank you, Charlie, for a legacy that will live on and for inspiring me to live more like Jesus.